The Gift of Desperation

First, let me say go Obama care! History has been made and it’s because someone stepped into their destiny and BELIEVED IN HOPE! You go Boy, I mean Mr. President!

During the last several days, I took a personal vacation to revive my spirit and refocus on the purpose and very plan that God has ordered in my life. I wish I could say that I went on a tropical vacation that was on my schedule since last spring. You know the trips you save almost half on because you purchased so far in advance. A trip you decide on because you want to use up your vacation days at work or need a place to go just because it’s that time of the year. Like many of us, I was well over due for a vacation, but unwilling to take one, and well, someone ABOVE us decided that if I was not going to willingly take one I would be placed in a position where I would cry out for one. You know the feeling where you can’t explain, it makes no sense, and everyone is left puzzled of your abrupt departure. What I and everyone else fail to realize is that the trip that I thought was so unplanned is actually the very vacation that God booked well in advance. You see my desperate moment of escape was only the strategic planning of God in bringing me to a place where I could be at total and complete submission to Him and no one else. God said, “Return unto me and I will return on to you”. You see the gift of a desperate moment is the set up for when you began to realize that you have taken a detour and you must now find your way back to the main road; YOUR SOURCE.


I learned so many things during my alone time and I want to share them with you. I wrote every day of my journey; mostly how I was awaken by the aroma of only God and the intimacy of His voice and His Silence. I am going to share my FIVE JOURNALS with you each day. I like to call them A Young Woman’s Boot Camp, inspired by a young man’s faith and unimaginable strength to seek God even at a time where he is facing the hardest boot camp of his life; a place where neither you nor I would never ever want to go. As my candid journals may be dismaying to some, I think as true leaders of greatness we must be transparent and allow the world to see our normality. I hope my willingness to be free and open about my growth and experiences will save some young girl close to giving up on her dreams and settling for less than her best life. I hope I can encourage another young woman who is experiencing a desperate moment right now to fight strategically and stand up boldly. My faith is renewed in the fact that I will not DEPEND ON ANYONE but my SOURCE! I am strengthen to know that LIFE will be LIFE, but my muscle of FAITH will continue to grow everyday because God is using my mustard seed of Faith to take me further into my HOPE! So you see Sistah, I am in a place of awesome peace right now that surpasses all understanding and it is because I found the GIFT of a DESPERATE MOMENT! I hope you ENJOY and FIND SOME WAY TO reposition and rethink your own steps when you too experience a seemingly hopeless moment. Meet me tomorrow for DAY 1!

Blessings Sistah Lady Allen